Be strong Erin! I know everything seems pointless in this kind of situation: as you said at the end of your video, what could be the point of rewiewing speakers if you don't feel like sitting & listening to music at the moment?
Well, the point is that all your knowledge and experiments and all you have studied & learned in the past years will be useful again, for you, for your friends & family and for your present and future subscribers & viewers. So many people in fact, who are and will be very thankful.
Time with friends & family, walking, travelling, books & movies are the cure for a sad state of mind. Read or hear other people's stories, it will help you seing the light at the end of the runnel.